– “T, i love your enthusiasm.”
– “wha?! what are you talking about & where is this coming from?”
– “i was just thinking back about our friendship…and you’re just so enthusiastic about life.”
its true. i’m like a kid in a candy store when i’m really “about” something. however, i’m quickly learning how i work; i need constant life-stimulation (not to be mistaken and confused with life-drama). to clarify, i love discovering new things and diving into them and learning about them. i spend hours researching things and once i’ve soaked my brain with what i can, i turn around and analyze my thoughts about them – form an opinion. i haven’t had that kind of life stimuli lately.
its so easy to fall into the comfort zone of “complacency”. i definitely have been guilty of this for the past few weeks. it wasn’t until a recent conversation with my other half that sparked my self-reflection. (don’t get me wrong, she wasn’t pointing anything out…just conversation about other things that led me to self-reflect).
anyhow, i don’t think this is uncommon in people. my theory is, passionate people need intensity for movement, like drug addicts need that chemical high.
i’m getting restless due to “life-boredom”. that sounds worse than it is…
i started to wonder what it’d be like if i changed my surroundings, what new adventures would come about. i thought about all the wonderful new things that i may experience and being able to breathe in new air. then the reality of that thought kicked in, “tdo – you need a substantial pile of loot to ‘start over’…”
bummer of a thought, however good goal to set forth. so the immediate continuous goal is to put more into saving disposable income. however, in the meanwhile, i still run into the initial issue of “life-boredom”. not to mention, i really miss my ladybird. its been longer than normal since we’ve seen each other. that’s probably a big contributor to the restlessness, as well.
On a brighter note…
i’ve found myself obsessed over another musical genius. his name: edmar castaneda. he is a Columbian jazz harpist. what makes me so thrilled about him are the facts that:
- he is a harpist
- he is not a “traditional” harpists, but rather a jazz harpist.
- he is a “he”. it is very rare to find male harpists in the music world.
- in my opinion, he is another musical genius.
check him out if you get a chance.