…only because I’m currently listening to Beck…
Anyhow, sometimes I get bombarded with these “personal epiphanies.” What I normally do with them is store them in the back of my mind’s filing cabinet like an overdue bill. for whatever reason, that habit is changing in this particular instance and for this particular circumstance. I kind of realized today that I’ve been “coasting.” I’ve been doing ok with the “status quo” and my daily…weekly routine.
Now, my life isn’t bad; not at all, actually. I have a good career, I live in one of America’s best cities, I’m surrounded by pretty amazing people, I have a roof over my head and food to eat. but, sometimes, you don’t realize what more you can do for yourself & for others because you’re used to these routines that aren’t necessarily bad.
this weekend, i spent the long weekend with my partner. we did not-so-crazy-extravagant-but-ever-so-priceless things like…well, we went to an outlet mall. partner-love treated herself to some new (and hot) threads while i grabbed us some gadgets that allotted us the luxury of listening to good music at home through these wonderful devices. Matter of fact, I was listening to Beck and now enjoying the Vaccines as I type. Music is a big part of our lives. It’s also a HUGE reason why we met & connected. Anyhow, we’ve both been deprived of music in the house. This feels damn good to have it accessible and in great quality and quantities; the way music & love should always be consumed.
I forgot how much music has an effect on me. Since moving to SF, i haven’t had the opportunity to set up much of a sound system (other than my TV or laptop) due to lack of outlets. (there are only so many surge protectors one can utilize without making one’s place look like a mad scientist’s lab). Listening to music via laptop speakers leaves much to be desired. so, this portable little gadget was certainly the right choice and good investment.
I also got my long-overdue-sasquatch-looking eyebrows threaded today. this is something I used to do religiously every other week. it’s nice to look like a normal human being with expressions again.
Lovely partner and I also made our way to Teavana. be forewarned: you will spend a lot of money on things that taste really good, are really pretty and are good for you.
So, here I am listening to wonderful ear candy while having a cup of citrus lavender sage tea as I try to jot down this cluster fuck of thoughts.
The whole point of this post? I realized more and more that I’ve been selling myself short. I had stopped taking these extra little self-care steps and just trekked along and “getting by.” I don’t mean fiscally, (although, San Francisco, you are VERY expensive and challenge my bank account constantly.) but rather, somewhere along the way, i seemed to have gotten a bit lost. I had forgotten that taking care of oneself projects a lot more light & brightness into the world – your own and other’s.
it doesn’t take material things for self-care (though my aforementioned statements may make it seem as such.) but these are just staples in my life that ground me…these simple pleasures.
The next step is to de-clutter my surroundings; get rid of clothes I don’t wear, put away / sell / donate gadgets I no longer use, and stop settling for what isn’t advantageous just because it’s comfortable.
I’m kind of disappointed that I’ve “settled” a bit. but, it’s never too late to do something new & different for the sake of inner peace. (how hippy did THAT sound?)
PS: listening to Nick Drake’s “one of these things first.” you’ll thank me later.